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Saturday, May 22, 2010

I Wish There Was A Chapter In The Instruction Manual For This One

Asia came to visit Livvy today. She waltzed in like nothing happened.

Like she didn't just get kicked out of school and choose to run away when I tried to talk to her about it.

Like we didn't just go three days without hearing from her.

Like we are so completely in the wrong that we should have welcomed her with open arms.

I couldn't do it. To be honest, I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what to say.

I've never been in this situation before.

But I get the feeling that I should figure out how to handle it really quickly.

Because it is probably going to happen again.

And again.

And again.

Because we will never be allowed to parent her.

And we can't not parent her.

So where does that leave us?

6 comments:

Betty said...

I´m so sorry, my dear friend!! I can feel your pain in your words and I feel it with you. I cannot give you any advice. Just know that I´m praying for you and hope you will feel that. I know God will give you the wisdom you need for this situation!
((Hugs!!))

wy-not said...

Honey I think Betty is right. All we can do is pray that you find the wisdom you need in every instance, pray that Asia manages to keep her head on straight during these very difficult years, and pray for patience. You love her, and she loves you - that's the important thing. Good luck babe. If there's anything we can do to help, just let us know.

xoxoxoxoxoxo

Mama

Ronda's Rants said...

I am truly sorry...Will she talk with your Mom? Is there a family friend who would take her in? They way you would know she was safe? I am sure you have tried all of this...I do feel your pain but I know what a smart person you are and you will do whatever is best, whatever that is!
You are in our prayers!

Anonymous said...

I told Shelby about Asia moving out. We are both praying for you all! Shelby feels really bad for you and wants me to tell you to hang in there. All I can say is I'm glad you didn't give her the power to control the situation...Is that mean of me? Stay strong but loving. Love ya, Kristina

angie said...

All I can offer is a huge cyber hug. I'm so sorry.

Heidi said...

Rhonda.... I'm so sorry. Do you think that she would want to come and live with me? If she would I would take her. Let me know. Email me at heidihaddrell@gmail.com. Miss you.